urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bleedtheseskies she's a girl with a smile so grand she could stop the world bleedtheseskies 2006-07-18T02:58:01Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bleedtheseskies:11506 2006-07-18T02:58:01Z 2006-07-18T02:58:01Z Society's Finest-Eggshell I'm no longer going to be using this journal.<br />I deleted everything off of it besides my most recent entry.<br />I can't even describe how i feel this time...<br />When i found out today I literally lost my breath.<br />It fealt like someone was ripping my chest apart.<br />Atleast I know the truth now<br />Plain and simple though<br />I was lied to.<br />The funny part of the whole this is I sat up for 3 days straight almost<br />just poring my eyes out. <br />I had some elaborate conversation going through my head about what I was goin to say to her.<br />but now I'm just sick, tired and cold.<br />I'm totally at lack of words.<br />Screamin is my only therapy <br />These men put it better than I ever could.<br /><br /><br /><br />Artists Rendering Of Me<br /><br />With all my said unsaids / Never swallow<br />The idea of a happy ending<br />Another days memory dies<br />As I'm made to smile / these lifeless days<br />have left me with an empty heart<br />another wounded memory dies<br />I could / never / swallow your false ideals<br />of a lifeless / happy ending<br />how could words slit wrists and doors close<br />present day heart felt moments / killed by a slap<br />to the hand / another wounded memory dries<br />poisonous screams with messages<br />not thought of when released<br />another day here / another memory dies<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Looking A Gilt Horse In The Mouth<br /><br />She called my captain.<br />I dragged her into the deepest seas.<br />What am I supposed to do now?<br />With these pictures and memories.<br />Now that I've thrown you away<br />This is the last song i write for you.<br />Where is my closure?<br />You can find me clinging to my sheets.<br />Waiting for this new perspective that these hands are better of empty.<br />Now that I've thrown you away<br />I'm still waiting <br />And we've parted ways<br />And i hope your happy<br />cause you are the memory that just wont seem to fade urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bleedtheseskies:11180 2006-07-17T05:37:08Z 2006-07-17T05:37:08Z poison the well- horns and tails so i havent eaten in 3 days.<br />everything i eat i throw up<br />i feel like fucking shit<br />in the past 4 days i have gotten about 7 hours of sleep total.<br />ive been thinking alot lately<br />more so then usual for obvious reasons<br />just shits fucked up right now<br />my mind cant stay on one thing<br />and i dont wanna deal with it<br />i dont really want to talk to anyone....<br />.........ever<br />ive desided that my brothers are my best friends ever<br />theyve always had my back<br />and i will always have theres<br /><br /><br />gunna go shower. <br />migt feel better if i dont stink like ass.